A school teacher may ask a second-grader what they want to be when they grow up, well as a sophomore in high school, I still cannot answer that simple question. Some little kids may say they want to be a firefighter, police officer, nurse, astronaut, or a mom or dad even, but my mind has offered no reply!
In school it's getting to that time where they really start to pressure you to think of your future; the scheduling for our junior year revolves around what we want to do with our lives. I'm actually looking at doing Post Secondary for my junior year rather than finishing up at my school. I, being just a random young lady, have never really thought much on my actual future, and now it is really starting to hit me that maybe I should have been planing. There are plenty of things that I could "grow up to be." I have the grades and the brains- not necessarily the commitment nor the time- to go to college and become an influential part of the world but money seems to be a very big issue. So, Post Secondary... free schooling... no book fees... high school and college credit... it seems as if it is a very wise choice, but I worry about the work load, the fact that I won't be around friends, and of course, I worry about the acceptance of having classes with people who could be at least five years older than me.
All my life I've been a "people watcher"... that leads me into the psychology/ sociology field. I love to help people... nursing, social worker, law enforcement and all that good stuff. I love science, anatomy, biology (and all the things like that)... that list gives me anything medical basically. There is just so much that that could metamorphose from this little person named "Beth."
*sigh* If only I could jump to the future and figure out what will come of all of this schooling... or just in general, I don't even know what my future will look like in general!
And now I need to end this rant and go finish up my last worksheet before bed.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
*exasperated sigh*
Finally, my computer is reformatted, granted, there is nothing on here except what I've got on my flash drive... which (lucky me) is all homework *rolls eyes*...
So, here I am again, depriving my brain of thought by turning out the lights, blasting music (this time from an old cd of mine since there is no music on my computer), and drowning myself in homework.
Speaking of which, I need to go finish the last few details on my power point presentation and the report for Bio.
See you all another day.
So, here I am again, depriving my brain of thought by turning out the lights, blasting music (this time from an old cd of mine since there is no music on my computer), and drowning myself in homework.
Speaking of which, I need to go finish the last few details on my power point presentation and the report for Bio.
See you all another day.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Girls Rock!!
I've been asked to put up a few videos by various people. One of which was "Monster" by the rising punk stars Meg and Dia. Check out the video; I absolutly love this entire song and the lyrics.
While I was looking at this video I got the idea to just do an entire entry of chick rock bands, so enjoy my little collection!
I saw Flyleaf sing this song in concert about 2 years ago; here is "All Around Me"
Here is Kelly Clarkson's video of "Because of You"
Paramore's "Misery Business"
While I was looking at this video I got the idea to just do an entire entry of chick rock bands, so enjoy my little collection!
I saw Flyleaf sing this song in concert about 2 years ago; here is "All Around Me"
Here is Kelly Clarkson's video of "Because of You"
Paramore's "Misery Business"
Hijacked!
All technology must have a very severe aversion towards me since it seems like everything that I come in contact with that has a microchip decides to self-destruct. I came home from camp to find all sorts of things wrong with my computer (which I just reformatted less than a month ago), like one day when I came home from school my computer had managed to turn itself on, access the web and bring up all sorts of "nasty" pop-ups and banner ads. I noticed that on the title bar of each thing that would come up it would say "outerinfo." My computer-geek mother and I scavenged the internet and found out what it was... turns out it's a computer hijacker. In the past 24 hours my computer has been turning on and off by itself and then proceeding to try and say that it's opening up something but then just shuts down again only to restart the cycle. I couldn't keep it turned on any longer than a minute before it would shut off of it's own accord. So, I couldn't get any of my school files off to save them! My entire Biology report would be gone! All of my notes for classes! But luckily, Mom, being the genius that she is, told me how to put it into "safe mode" so that only the basic drivers would run and I would be able to salvage my important files. Now, this blasted computer needs to be reformatted AGAIN before I can use it! Mom has set me up with her work laptop so that I can do my school work (which I'm allegedly doing at this very moment).
And to hit home the point that all technology hates me, just as I was telling Elmo about this story today after school, the toaster decided to make weird buzzing noises right as I popped in my waffle. Just my luck...
Well, I need to go back to figuring out how to use Mom's Vista so that I can work on my homework. Camp stories will come later... but no one died and there were no mega natural disasters this time!
And to hit home the point that all technology hates me, just as I was telling Elmo about this story today after school, the toaster decided to make weird buzzing noises right as I popped in my waffle. Just my luck...
Well, I need to go back to figuring out how to use Mom's Vista so that I can work on my homework. Camp stories will come later... but no one died and there were no mega natural disasters this time!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Adios, mi amigos
Alright, for those of you who don't know Spanish, that was "goodbye, my friends." I will be leaving for camp tomorrow and not returning until Sunday. Even though you may die a little on the inside with out my blogging to read, I know you will survive.
I love camping, without a doubt in my mind, I absolutely love to get away from it all and be connected with nature and have some quality down-time to sketch and think and relax, all of which are things I haven't done since school started! We aren't permitted to take along cellphones or mp3 players or any kind of electronics; and, besides you would not get service where we go anyway. I can live without music easily (even though I will always love my music) and as a plus, I get to have time to finally sit and sketch and be outdoors where I can open my eyes and not have homework in front of me!
The only downside to me going is the social part. I can come straight out and say that I'm generally a shy person at school with the people I've known since second grade. But when you toss me in with people from all over the state that I've never met (some people I've met once or twice), that's when I become a real introvert and the queen of being anti-social. If anyone out there in blogger land has ever seen me in a group of people, they'll know that I'm always the person standing off near the back that will avoid eye contact and only speak when spoken to (and only then, speak in a quiet voice for that matter). Believe it or not, I wasn't always like this, back in roughly 6th grade is when I became as introverted as I am now. But, I doubt that I shall ever become as social as I was then. At home and with people I am very familiar with, I tend to be more outgoing, but still not to the point of what I use to be. With my friends like Cookie Monster and Elmo who I go to school with, they get to see both sides, the quiet side and the hyperactive side.
Well, it's past ten, and anyone that I would normally be talking to has gone to bed. My classes won't be session tomorrow since we have a teacher in-service, preparing for the new nine weeks, and updating teachers on news that they should know about (like the levy that isn't passing which will eventually lead to cutbacks and pay to play). So, while all of my friends from other schools have class tomorrow, I'm lucky enough to have the perfect schedule! I don't have to rush after school to make it to the church parking lot to meet up with my youth group like I've had to do in previous years.
*sigh*
Ok, I need to go check on the laundry and start packing up now. So, I'll be back on Sunday, see you all later!
I love camping, without a doubt in my mind, I absolutely love to get away from it all and be connected with nature and have some quality down-time to sketch and think and relax, all of which are things I haven't done since school started! We aren't permitted to take along cellphones or mp3 players or any kind of electronics; and, besides you would not get service where we go anyway. I can live without music easily (even though I will always love my music) and as a plus, I get to have time to finally sit and sketch and be outdoors where I can open my eyes and not have homework in front of me!
The only downside to me going is the social part. I can come straight out and say that I'm generally a shy person at school with the people I've known since second grade. But when you toss me in with people from all over the state that I've never met (some people I've met once or twice), that's when I become a real introvert and the queen of being anti-social. If anyone out there in blogger land has ever seen me in a group of people, they'll know that I'm always the person standing off near the back that will avoid eye contact and only speak when spoken to (and only then, speak in a quiet voice for that matter). Believe it or not, I wasn't always like this, back in roughly 6th grade is when I became as introverted as I am now. But, I doubt that I shall ever become as social as I was then. At home and with people I am very familiar with, I tend to be more outgoing, but still not to the point of what I use to be. With my friends like Cookie Monster and Elmo who I go to school with, they get to see both sides, the quiet side and the hyperactive side.
Well, it's past ten, and anyone that I would normally be talking to has gone to bed. My classes won't be session tomorrow since we have a teacher in-service, preparing for the new nine weeks, and updating teachers on news that they should know about (like the levy that isn't passing which will eventually lead to cutbacks and pay to play). So, while all of my friends from other schools have class tomorrow, I'm lucky enough to have the perfect schedule! I don't have to rush after school to make it to the church parking lot to meet up with my youth group like I've had to do in previous years.
*sigh*
Ok, I need to go check on the laundry and start packing up now. So, I'll be back on Sunday, see you all later!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
zzzzzzzzzzz....
There's a bunch of songs about sleep out there, and knowing my music colection, I probably have most of them. :D
One of my favorites is "Who Needs Sleep" by the Barenaked Ladies. The song goes like this:
Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat
Chapter read and lesson learned
I turned the lights off while she burned
So while she's three hundred degrees
I throw the sheets off and I freeze
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
My hands are locked up tight in fists
My mind is racing filled with lists
of things to do and things I've done
Another sleepless night's begun
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
There's so much joy in life,
so many pleasures all around
But the pleasure of insomnia
is one I've never found
With all life has to offer,
There's so much to be enjoyed
But the pleasures of insomnia
are ones I can't avoid
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Hala Hala Hala...
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
And then there's this strange video that I found, the first 2 minutes (and 14 seconds if you want to be exact) are kinda pointless... but if you've ever had to pull an all-nighter because of school, then you get why it's key to this video. After those two minutes though, the video gets good. I liked it, but then again, this is the strange girl who doesn't often sleep who loves this song.
Ok, well, I promised myself that I would be in bed, and under the covers by 10:45... I've got a little less than 15 minutes. So, I hope all of you out there taking your Semester Exams or just trying to stay caught up in school can mannage to get some sleep!
(This just occurred to me, it's really stupid, but I'm going to tell it anyway. In place of "procrastinators unite tomorrow" it could be "insomniacs unite in our dreams!")
One of my favorites is "Who Needs Sleep" by the Barenaked Ladies. The song goes like this:
Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat
Chapter read and lesson learned
I turned the lights off while she burned
So while she's three hundred degrees
I throw the sheets off and I freeze
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
My hands are locked up tight in fists
My mind is racing filled with lists
of things to do and things I've done
Another sleepless night's begun
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
There's so much joy in life,
so many pleasures all around
But the pleasure of insomnia
is one I've never found
With all life has to offer,
There's so much to be enjoyed
But the pleasures of insomnia
are ones I can't avoid
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Hala Hala Hala...
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
Who needs sleep?
(well you're never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what's that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War)
And then there's this strange video that I found, the first 2 minutes (and 14 seconds if you want to be exact) are kinda pointless... but if you've ever had to pull an all-nighter because of school, then you get why it's key to this video. After those two minutes though, the video gets good. I liked it, but then again, this is the strange girl who doesn't often sleep who loves this song.
Ok, well, I promised myself that I would be in bed, and under the covers by 10:45... I've got a little less than 15 minutes. So, I hope all of you out there taking your Semester Exams or just trying to stay caught up in school can mannage to get some sleep!
(This just occurred to me, it's really stupid, but I'm going to tell it anyway. In place of "procrastinators unite tomorrow" it could be "insomniacs unite in our dreams!")
Wednesdays...
Well, I am thrilled that I don't have any vital homework due tomorrow, just studying for the second part of my Honors Language Arts exam and working on the projects I have for Bio and AP US History. So, this means that I can have time for the youth group I attend. Recently I haven't had time to go since I have such a heavy homework load, but tonight, I plan on going.
Over the past few years I started attending a church in my town, and slowly but surly I am starting to make sense of this entire "religion thing" that people always talked about. So, that's where I'll be tonight. And this weekend I have Winter Camp with my youth group, so I still need to do laundry and pack up, we leave on Friday and come back on Sunday. I won't have any blogs posting during then since I'll be out of town.
So, now I am going to go upstairs and start a load of laundry and then do more homework and start packing up!
I'm still kind of iffy as to if I want to go to camp since I don't really like "social settings." Everyone there knows everyone else, and I've only been there twice... no wait, three times, one summer, then winter, then this past summer, and now this will be my fourth.
If I have some extra time before I leave, I will tell the horror story of my first time at camp... tornadoes, floods... yeah, it's interesting.
Ok, now I've got to go do laundry! (oh, joy...)
Over the past few years I started attending a church in my town, and slowly but surly I am starting to make sense of this entire "religion thing" that people always talked about. So, that's where I'll be tonight. And this weekend I have Winter Camp with my youth group, so I still need to do laundry and pack up, we leave on Friday and come back on Sunday. I won't have any blogs posting during then since I'll be out of town.
So, now I am going to go upstairs and start a load of laundry and then do more homework and start packing up!
I'm still kind of iffy as to if I want to go to camp since I don't really like "social settings." Everyone there knows everyone else, and I've only been there twice... no wait, three times, one summer, then winter, then this past summer, and now this will be my fourth.
If I have some extra time before I leave, I will tell the horror story of my first time at camp... tornadoes, floods... yeah, it's interesting.
Ok, now I've got to go do laundry! (oh, joy...)
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Insanity
The headlines of every newspaper should read: School Causing Mental Breakdowns and Insanity in Millions of Teens!
Exams suck.
Now that that's on the record, I can continue to back up that headline.
Some people will look back on their high school years and think "man, those were the best years of my life, I won't ever want to forget those beautiful memories."
But, there's always the other end of the spectrum. Someone may reflect back to their freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years as the worst, most torturous, dreadful of their life. There is so much drama and emotion tied into school. It's a near-deadly mix when you combine all of your classes with homework, house work, friends, family, exams, scheduling, home life, social life, school life, and (if you're lucky enough- or unlucky enough- depending on your past relationships) a boyfriend or girlfriend. It can get out of hand...
I can stand in the hallway before school starts and hear hundreds of conversations. People walk by and it just seems as if everyone is kind of loosing their head about things recently. Including myself, I must admit.
Now I am left wondering, "will things get better for anyone?"
All of my friends are having their own conflicts (both internal and with other people) and we're all trying to help each other, but the reality is: how can one help a friend to cope when one can't even cope in the first place?
Today my friends and I have talked and passed notes and made phone calls... it seems as if each one has been all "doom and gloom" with not a single strand of anything good happening in the lives of anyone.
It seems strange to me, why is it that when one thing goes bad, that it seems to have a domino effect? One word seems to be inscribed on everyone's domino chain somewhere: past.
I've been watching five of my friends and I'm fairly sure that I can see their impending doom (sadly at times I think I've even seen my own) coming both directly and indirectly from that singular domino.
Now, if only someone could figure out how to take out bad dominoes and leave just the good dominoes.
Exams suck.
Now that that's on the record, I can continue to back up that headline.
Some people will look back on their high school years and think "man, those were the best years of my life, I won't ever want to forget those beautiful memories."
But, there's always the other end of the spectrum. Someone may reflect back to their freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior years as the worst, most torturous, dreadful of their life. There is so much drama and emotion tied into school. It's a near-deadly mix when you combine all of your classes with homework, house work, friends, family, exams, scheduling, home life, social life, school life, and (if you're lucky enough- or unlucky enough- depending on your past relationships) a boyfriend or girlfriend. It can get out of hand...
I can stand in the hallway before school starts and hear hundreds of conversations. People walk by and it just seems as if everyone is kind of loosing their head about things recently. Including myself, I must admit.
Now I am left wondering, "will things get better for anyone?"
All of my friends are having their own conflicts (both internal and with other people) and we're all trying to help each other, but the reality is: how can one help a friend to cope when one can't even cope in the first place?
Today my friends and I have talked and passed notes and made phone calls... it seems as if each one has been all "doom and gloom" with not a single strand of anything good happening in the lives of anyone.
It seems strange to me, why is it that when one thing goes bad, that it seems to have a domino effect? One word seems to be inscribed on everyone's domino chain somewhere: past.
I've been watching five of my friends and I'm fairly sure that I can see their impending doom (sadly at times I think I've even seen my own) coming both directly and indirectly from that singular domino.
Now, if only someone could figure out how to take out bad dominoes and leave just the good dominoes.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Too Random
As I was studying for my Honors Language Arts exam I heard "Truth" by Seether.
That was when it hit me, I should post up their strange video! They've got awesome songs... but always the strangest of videos. This one has various holiday icons fighting each other in a wrestling ring. But, the song in and of itself is a very good song, I absolutely love the lyrics.
That was when it hit me, I should post up their strange video! They've got awesome songs... but always the strangest of videos. This one has various holiday icons fighting each other in a wrestling ring. But, the song in and of itself is a very good song, I absolutely love the lyrics.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Shaking The Rafters
It's about time that I start making your speakers vibrate off of your desk. So, check out these awesome videos. (And P.S. Elmo, you actually might like the lyrics just not the sound of the song... so try looking up the lyrics as you watch these. I promise, they're not as bad as they seem. Remember, don't judge a book by it's cover!)
Breaking Benjamin's "Rain"
Here is Three Day's Grace singing "Animal I Have Become"
And this next one is up here specifically for Elmo and Cookie Monster... we can have fun with this one! (Cookie Monster, don't get any ideas, I'M JOKING!)
The Dixie Chicks - "Goodbye Earl" (these subtitles are wrong... frequently... but it was the best I felt like looking for at the time. Deal with it.)
... Aw, crap! I lost track of time, and I have to be in bed by 10pm! Sorry Mom!
Breaking Benjamin's "Rain"
Here is Three Day's Grace singing "Animal I Have Become"
And this next one is up here specifically for Elmo and Cookie Monster... we can have fun with this one! (Cookie Monster, don't get any ideas, I'M JOKING!)
The Dixie Chicks - "Goodbye Earl" (these subtitles are wrong... frequently... but it was the best I felt like looking for at the time. Deal with it.)
... Aw, crap! I lost track of time, and I have to be in bed by 10pm! Sorry Mom!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Pounded!
I'm pounded with homework!
I'm pounding my head onto my keyboard!
I'm wanting to pound my homework into the fireplace!
Hmm... Let's see here, everything from scheduling to tests to exams to projects.
From bottom to top:
Little blue booklet: College Board AP Bulletin about the upcoming exam in May
Little white booklet: "Getting Ready"packet for scheduling for next year, provided by the school
Purple binder: Honors Language Arts 10; I have an exam in that class on Tuesday the 15th and on Thursday the 17th
Green binder: Biology, I have to write out answers for the exam review packet (consisting of over 80 questions) due Monday; Exam on Tuesday and Wednesday (15th and 16th); I have to recopy all of the notes ever taken in this class, which is due Wednesday the 16th
Orange book: Biology book
Big white binder: AP US History binder
Tattered old book: Borrowed from my History teacher in order to do a project that is due Monday the 14th
Workbook: AP US History workbook to study for the Chapter 23 test on Monday the 14th
Book with poker booksock: AP US History book so that I can read chapter 23
Purple folder: (has all sorts of miscellaneous papers in it that I've yet to sort into my binders) Contains my Honors Language Arts "quick question" note cards that I have to answer for Monday the 14th; Geometry paper that I have to do all about Unit Circles and Special Triangles and Trig questions about both of those
Spiral ring notebook: recent notes from any of my 7 classes, homework list, and other various information is scattered throughout it
TI84 Plus Silver Edition calculator for all of my Geometry homework
Green Pencil bag: (the name says it all...) And here, is my memory key where I'm storing all of my information for my Biology project that is due on Monday the 28th about Hemophilia!
So, that's what my USUAL homework load is like. Not exaggerating, not at all.
*sigh* Now I have to go and do homework and study and slowly die from my impending caffeine overdose that I'm going to have from the 2 cups of coffee that I've had and the 6 cans of energy drinks that I bought for this weekend so that I can cram for my exams and get everything done!
P.S.: I don't have a caffeine addiction, this is a very rare thing for me to require energy drinks to do homework. But me running on 3-6 hours of sleep a night all throughout the school week and 0-2 hours over the weekend is normal, and after 5 years, it's catching up to me.
Hey, Cookie Monster, let's do that circle...
I'm pounding my head onto my keyboard!
I'm wanting to pound my homework into the fireplace!
Hmm... Let's see here, everything from scheduling to tests to exams to projects.
From bottom to top:
Little blue booklet: College Board AP Bulletin about the upcoming exam in May
Little white booklet: "Getting Ready"packet for scheduling for next year, provided by the school
Purple binder: Honors Language Arts 10; I have an exam in that class on Tuesday the 15th and on Thursday the 17th
Green binder: Biology, I have to write out answers for the exam review packet (consisting of over 80 questions) due Monday; Exam on Tuesday and Wednesday (15th and 16th); I have to recopy all of the notes ever taken in this class, which is due Wednesday the 16th
Orange book: Biology book
Big white binder: AP US History binder
Tattered old book: Borrowed from my History teacher in order to do a project that is due Monday the 14th
Workbook: AP US History workbook to study for the Chapter 23 test on Monday the 14th
Book with poker booksock: AP US History book so that I can read chapter 23
Purple folder: (has all sorts of miscellaneous papers in it that I've yet to sort into my binders) Contains my Honors Language Arts "quick question" note cards that I have to answer for Monday the 14th; Geometry paper that I have to do all about Unit Circles and Special Triangles and Trig questions about both of those
Spiral ring notebook: recent notes from any of my 7 classes, homework list, and other various information is scattered throughout it
TI84 Plus Silver Edition calculator for all of my Geometry homework
Green Pencil bag: (the name says it all...) And here, is my memory key where I'm storing all of my information for my Biology project that is due on Monday the 28th about Hemophilia!
So, that's what my USUAL homework load is like. Not exaggerating, not at all.
*sigh* Now I have to go and do homework and study and slowly die from my impending caffeine overdose that I'm going to have from the 2 cups of coffee that I've had and the 6 cans of energy drinks that I bought for this weekend so that I can cram for my exams and get everything done!
P.S.: I don't have a caffeine addiction, this is a very rare thing for me to require energy drinks to do homework. But me running on 3-6 hours of sleep a night all throughout the school week and 0-2 hours over the weekend is normal, and after 5 years, it's catching up to me.
Hey, Cookie Monster, let's do that circle...
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
"Feed me, Seymour!"
I frown upon all of you who don't get the "Little Shop of Horrors" reference! But that's aside from the point, if you haven't seen it, go IMDB it so that you know what I'm going to be rambling about today (then of course, you have to rent it so you can laugh at an 80's musical).
"Feed me, Seymour," is something my stomach will never gurgle because I have no desire to eat the people who wronged me, that would be cannibalism.
But also because recently I haven't been all that hungry (yeah, sure, I say this as there is a pack of half-eaten saltines sitting on my desk) recently for some unknown reason. At lunch I usually eat a few bites of each thing and then just sit there twirling my fork until Cookie Monster, Elmo, and Pimp (she wanted her nickname to be that, so it is!) are all done eating. Then when dinner rolls around at my house at around 5pm I eat about 1/2 servings of everything. It use to be that I would get light-headed if I didn't eat enough food, but now, my stomach has trouble keeping things down and I simply don't eat much anymore.
Back in October, Puppy asked me if I was anorexic! (I promise, I'm not!)
Then recently I don't even feel hungry at all! Strange...
I know that I need to eat, so I do, but the more I eat, the more upset my stomach becomes! Sometimes I can't keep down what I eat (or keep it just runs through me)! But, that's a major TMI
Today, my stomach has been so upset that it literally feels like my insides are tied up in knots! (hence the saltines sitting on my desk, they're the only thing I can always keep down.)
And there you have it, my little rant for the day. I have a stomach that has gone to war on me and the toilet. :S
"Feed me, Seymour," is something my stomach will never gurgle because I have no desire to eat the people who wronged me, that would be cannibalism.
But also because recently I haven't been all that hungry (yeah, sure, I say this as there is a pack of half-eaten saltines sitting on my desk) recently for some unknown reason. At lunch I usually eat a few bites of each thing and then just sit there twirling my fork until Cookie Monster, Elmo, and Pimp (she wanted her nickname to be that, so it is!) are all done eating. Then when dinner rolls around at my house at around 5pm I eat about 1/2 servings of everything. It use to be that I would get light-headed if I didn't eat enough food, but now, my stomach has trouble keeping things down and I simply don't eat much anymore.
Back in October, Puppy asked me if I was anorexic! (I promise, I'm not!)
Then recently I don't even feel hungry at all! Strange...
I know that I need to eat, so I do, but the more I eat, the more upset my stomach becomes! Sometimes I can't keep down what I eat (or keep it just runs through me)! But, that's a major TMI
Today, my stomach has been so upset that it literally feels like my insides are tied up in knots! (hence the saltines sitting on my desk, they're the only thing I can always keep down.)
And there you have it, my little rant for the day. I have a stomach that has gone to war on me and the toilet. :S
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Average? Wire?
*Sigh*
All of my homework is done! YES! For once in all of my memory of this year, I have no homework in AP US History!
So, all of my work is done, it seems implausible!
The question is: now what would the average teen do?
Why, work on tomorrow's homework, of course!
Well... I guess I'm far from average, because no other teen in this universe would sit here and work ahead of the class.
My workload is so huge everyday that I usually have 4 binders, 3 school books, 2 folders, 1 workbook, and 1 calculator to take home!
I've yet to crack under this pressure; I just wish I could say the same for some of my friends. Recently, school has become a mammoth on my back that craps in my face each time I try to look for a silver lining in the dark clouds up above.
I don't have the "average classes," the "average workload," the "average home," or let alone the "average life!" LOL! But it helps that I don't have the "average mindset of a teenager."
The only way I've managed to get through this school year is by the saving grace of my music! Ever since I can remember I've been listening to music, and it's always been an escape for me when I'm stressed, or when life isn't "good" in general.
Each day i walk the halls and sit in class listening to music in one ear and listening to teachers in the other.
My friends and I all "wire" ourselves before we head out for school in the morning. Since it's the popular look to wear a tank-top underneath of a tee-shirt (or whatever else you wear) we just run the wires from our MP3 players in our pockets, under the tee-shirt (but over the tank), and around to our backs, up to our ears and the headphone wires are hidden by our hair! We even have little holes cut into our hoodies behind the pockets so that we could pop the wires through there into the pockets rather than into our pants pockets! All we have to do to hear a teacher talk is hide one headphone down under our shirt on our shoulder!
Most teachers don't notice, and some teachers don't care if you listen to music in their class in the first place! Technically it's against school rules to permit any electronics in class (like cells or cd players or MP3 players) but if you look in the back of any guy's pocket, there will most likely be a Zune or an iPod or something like that; and, the same goes for any girl, they've probably got one in their purse! But most teachers will let you listen to music on down time.
So far, my grades have yet to suffer from this, and I've been doing it since 7th grade when I got my first MP3 player.
To recap: I'm far from average, and I'm always wired! lol!
All of my homework is done! YES! For once in all of my memory of this year, I have no homework in AP US History!
So, all of my work is done, it seems implausible!
The question is: now what would the average teen do?
Why, work on tomorrow's homework, of course!
Well... I guess I'm far from average, because no other teen in this universe would sit here and work ahead of the class.
My workload is so huge everyday that I usually have 4 binders, 3 school books, 2 folders, 1 workbook, and 1 calculator to take home!
I've yet to crack under this pressure; I just wish I could say the same for some of my friends. Recently, school has become a mammoth on my back that craps in my face each time I try to look for a silver lining in the dark clouds up above.
I don't have the "average classes," the "average workload," the "average home," or let alone the "average life!" LOL! But it helps that I don't have the "average mindset of a teenager."
The only way I've managed to get through this school year is by the saving grace of my music! Ever since I can remember I've been listening to music, and it's always been an escape for me when I'm stressed, or when life isn't "good" in general.
Each day i walk the halls and sit in class listening to music in one ear and listening to teachers in the other.
My friends and I all "wire" ourselves before we head out for school in the morning. Since it's the popular look to wear a tank-top underneath of a tee-shirt (or whatever else you wear) we just run the wires from our MP3 players in our pockets, under the tee-shirt (but over the tank), and around to our backs, up to our ears and the headphone wires are hidden by our hair! We even have little holes cut into our hoodies behind the pockets so that we could pop the wires through there into the pockets rather than into our pants pockets! All we have to do to hear a teacher talk is hide one headphone down under our shirt on our shoulder!
Most teachers don't notice, and some teachers don't care if you listen to music in their class in the first place! Technically it's against school rules to permit any electronics in class (like cells or cd players or MP3 players) but if you look in the back of any guy's pocket, there will most likely be a Zune or an iPod or something like that; and, the same goes for any girl, they've probably got one in their purse! But most teachers will let you listen to music on down time.
So far, my grades have yet to suffer from this, and I've been doing it since 7th grade when I got my first MP3 player.
To recap: I'm far from average, and I'm always wired! lol!
Monday, January 7, 2008
First Instalment
Well, everyone has been bugging me to post my story about this past Friday and Saturday, but I have the bad habit of writing novels when it comes to telling things that happen in my life. So, this will be the first instalment of what all of my readers have been wanting to read. This has just been sitting in a Word document waiting for me to publish it, I thought I would get further, but I have failed miserably since I'm trying to stay caught up on my homework!
So, here it is, enjoy! :P (I promise that I'll finish the story later, just let me get done with my homework!)
We have officially reached the eye of the storm where everything has an eerie silence and the air is electric as if when some one would say even a word that they may get violently shocked. Everyone is watching their words (except for my forever uncensored mother) and trying not to step on any toes for fear of getting a knife in their back.
My computer is reformatted and gorgeous once again! Yea! For a while I thought that I had lost half of my music, but it all worked itself out in the end. (phew!)
… *exasperated sigh*
So, I guess all of you are waiting for me to tell the story of Friday and Saturday, right? (Cookie Monster: Feel free to make any corrections, because my memory is a little muddled on some details)
Well, Friday at about 7pm I got in my car and pulled out of the driveway to go to Cookie Monster’s house; my trunk loaded down with clothing, schoolwork, Wii-motes, and board games. When I’m about two blocks away from her house I realize that I’ve foolishly forgotten to drop off my music cds that needed returned to the library, and that I left my pills on the counter back at the house. I just kept on driving to her house, and when I pulled up Cookie Monster was opening the door to check out me finally driving on my own. I tell her what all I forgot to do as we head into her house and we resolve to go to the library, even though I am well aware of the rule that I am not suppose to have people in the car with me for the time being. We get there and she jumps out and puts the cds in the night deposit box (our library closed at 6pm since it was a Friday). Then while she is dropping it off in the box, I pull up out of the way into a parking spot… and turn of the car. My car has issues. It doesn’t always start (among the handful of other things that don’t always go well with my car). Well, this time, my car did not start! And after a few tries I decided that I needed to get in the trunk for something (my cell phone from my purse I think, but I’m not sure anymore). It was frozen shut. I finally jimmied it open. I do whatever I was going to get, and then close it, and that’s when I realized that because it was so frigid outside, the tumblers on the lock for my trunk had bent my key! That’s when I realized I was screwed. I told Cookie Monster to slip behind her seat and poke through the Velcro cover that separated my trunk from the area behind the two seats since I knew that I would probably have to call mom. As she hid, I tried to reshape my key with my hands. That failed to work. So, I went to the trunk and worked the key into it and twisted it the other way, which managed to bend the key back into place. Back in the driver’s seat, I tried the engine again; still nothing, even after about 20 desperate tries.
So, here it is, enjoy! :P (I promise that I'll finish the story later, just let me get done with my homework!)
We have officially reached the eye of the storm where everything has an eerie silence and the air is electric as if when some one would say even a word that they may get violently shocked. Everyone is watching their words (except for my forever uncensored mother) and trying not to step on any toes for fear of getting a knife in their back.
My computer is reformatted and gorgeous once again! Yea! For a while I thought that I had lost half of my music, but it all worked itself out in the end. (phew!)
… *exasperated sigh*
So, I guess all of you are waiting for me to tell the story of Friday and Saturday, right? (Cookie Monster: Feel free to make any corrections, because my memory is a little muddled on some details)
Well, Friday at about 7pm I got in my car and pulled out of the driveway to go to Cookie Monster’s house; my trunk loaded down with clothing, schoolwork, Wii-motes, and board games. When I’m about two blocks away from her house I realize that I’ve foolishly forgotten to drop off my music cds that needed returned to the library, and that I left my pills on the counter back at the house. I just kept on driving to her house, and when I pulled up Cookie Monster was opening the door to check out me finally driving on my own. I tell her what all I forgot to do as we head into her house and we resolve to go to the library, even though I am well aware of the rule that I am not suppose to have people in the car with me for the time being. We get there and she jumps out and puts the cds in the night deposit box (our library closed at 6pm since it was a Friday). Then while she is dropping it off in the box, I pull up out of the way into a parking spot… and turn of the car. My car has issues. It doesn’t always start (among the handful of other things that don’t always go well with my car). Well, this time, my car did not start! And after a few tries I decided that I needed to get in the trunk for something (my cell phone from my purse I think, but I’m not sure anymore). It was frozen shut. I finally jimmied it open. I do whatever I was going to get, and then close it, and that’s when I realized that because it was so frigid outside, the tumblers on the lock for my trunk had bent my key! That’s when I realized I was screwed. I told Cookie Monster to slip behind her seat and poke through the Velcro cover that separated my trunk from the area behind the two seats since I knew that I would probably have to call mom. As she hid, I tried to reshape my key with my hands. That failed to work. So, I went to the trunk and worked the key into it and twisted it the other way, which managed to bend the key back into place. Back in the driver’s seat, I tried the engine again; still nothing, even after about 20 desperate tries.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Hiatus
Right now my computer is being reformatted and I won't be able to check into my blog very much. The reformatting started up yesterday (Saturday) while Stalin was here. On Friday after school at around 7pm I went over to Cookie Monster's house (as most of you already know, this was when I got in trouble for a little sneak trip to the Library) and we stayed up until about 3 playing the Wii and talking and doing other miscellaneous stuff. The entire computer stuff was suppose to be done then, but Mom was mad enough at me to say that it could wait (and I understand that).
So, for now as my mom struggles with the task of reformatting my computer, I am sitting right behind her typing on Angel's computer to put up this little entry.
Well, for once all of my homework is done! WOOO HOOOO! Maybe this will mean that I can finally have time to do some "fun" stuff like cleaning my room, doing laundry (my bedroom floor has "clothing colored carpet" as my mom would say) and reloading all of my music (over 4,500 songs and over 4,000 tracks of audio books).
When I am done tossing in a load of laundry, if it's alright with mom, I will be back to tell the story of Friday and Saturday night. *sigh* I am in serous trouble for that, but no one has died because of it yet! (yet being the key word!)
So, for now as my mom struggles with the task of reformatting my computer, I am sitting right behind her typing on Angel's computer to put up this little entry.
Well, for once all of my homework is done! WOOO HOOOO! Maybe this will mean that I can finally have time to do some "fun" stuff like cleaning my room, doing laundry (my bedroom floor has "clothing colored carpet" as my mom would say) and reloading all of my music (over 4,500 songs and over 4,000 tracks of audio books).
When I am done tossing in a load of laundry, if it's alright with mom, I will be back to tell the story of Friday and Saturday night. *sigh* I am in serous trouble for that, but no one has died because of it yet! (yet being the key word!)
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Code Names #2
*over loudspeaker*
Attention All Blogger Readers
Ok, everyone who has a code name (you know who you are) please use them rather than writing in your own name, that defeats the purpose otherwise! And if anyone wishes to talk about people that I've written about, please just write in their code names rather than using their real names! *glares at mom*
That is all, thank you
Attention All Blogger Readers
Ok, everyone who has a code name (you know who you are) please use them rather than writing in your own name, that defeats the purpose otherwise! And if anyone wishes to talk about people that I've written about, please just write in their code names rather than using their real names! *glares at mom*
That is all, thank you
Uh-oh :S
I'll tell you all the rest of the story from my end later, but until I get all of my homework done, you will just have to read this...
www.stillmtheaded.blogspot.com
That's my mom's blog.
(for lack of a better term)
I am in deep shit.
www.stillmtheaded.blogspot.com
That's my mom's blog.
(for lack of a better term)
I am in deep shit.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Code Names!
Rather than using my friend's real names, i am going to assign each one a code name... they'll know who they are once they see it, but that's it, no one else would know who they were...
So, let's see... we've got Cookie Monster, Elmo, Puppy, Angel, Domino, and Stalin.
Then my mom will just be Mom and my grandma will just be Gram or Grandma... same running for the rest of my family.
So, let's see... we've got Cookie Monster, Elmo, Puppy, Angel, Domino, and Stalin.
Then my mom will just be Mom and my grandma will just be Gram or Grandma... same running for the rest of my family.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
An Uneventful Return
This is my uneventful return to Blogger. After four months of torture and unwilling enslavement to the school and their evil homework, I finally decided that it is time for me to create a blog and actually attempt to keep it up, even if that means my entries are only two sentence explanation of why I don't have time to write!
My recent highlights in life other than being continuously swamped with homework are: 1) got a permit 2)had an amazing birthday party ( got a car for my birthday!) 3) started dating Stalin 4) passed the driving test with flying colors
Nothing all too interesting without me going through and recapping every detail. I'll just start filling you all in from her on rather than trying to catch you up.
Enjoy my insane ramblings! :D
-----EDIT-----
Stalin is not fourth on my personal list of things that happened... I just did it in time order. If it weren't for that then he would be first!! :D :P
My recent highlights in life other than being continuously swamped with homework are: 1) got a permit 2)had an amazing birthday party ( got a car for my birthday!) 3) started dating Stalin 4) passed the driving test with flying colors
Nothing all too interesting without me going through and recapping every detail. I'll just start filling you all in from her on rather than trying to catch you up.
Enjoy my insane ramblings! :D
-----EDIT-----
Stalin is not fourth on my personal list of things that happened... I just did it in time order. If it weren't for that then he would be first!! :D :P
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